i think i'll take one of my friends aproaches to sex, its none of your god damn business. that also goes for if / who im dating.

i wonder if theres any research that says that when you turn 12 years of age is around the time you start becoming secreative, because that would fit in with my twelfth brithday idea from a few days agpo

I saw two doctors today,

THEY DO STILL MAKE THE PANTS I LIKE YES! levi engineered jeans!!! they are so comfortable, i want them now. im getting new pants tomorrow, and a new fone sometime in the week. im getting some black cords and some engineered jeans, i cant wait!!!

Im so dissapointed with myself, i know materia.l possesions, yet i still get more excited about new jeans then i do about human rights advances, it'd be like cool gays get to marry now, and get equal tax breaks what new jeans? IM THERE!

i know its bad....but... why? maybe "yay new jeans or new fone" is hides a less obvious "retained social position, YES!" or maybe its just part of my identity, i mean people EXPECT me to have pretty cloths, expensive fone, and the apearance of wealth. which is really easy might i add. i look around my room and i see 3 expensive things, desk printer (which was on sale) and laptop, which was discounted and paid for by insurance. our huge TVs were floor stock, dad got discounts on wood flooring, we got the house painted for free, we got brick work discounted because we know them. most of our money goes to movies, dinners, allowance. great i've gone and completely destroeyed my entire image in one paragraph,

did i mention the reason im writing this is because i was so upset when i found out that i cant get the pants i want any more!